Catapulted through my delusions of self

Today: I am reading The End of Your World by Adyashanti. Every page speaks to where I am at right now, in this moment of time and awareness.

For example, he said Anything you avoid in life will come back, over and over again, until you're wiling to face it - to look deeply into its true nature. I looked into the nature of what I was doing, trying to ease human suffering, suffering myself because I was attached to the outcome, facing it, seeing through it, and now free of it. Page after page, this book authenticates my journey into the unknowable.

I wrote to my teacher: I'm not fighting the unknown, there's no fear or desire, just sticky "karmic residue" as I want to call it. It all feels just right:) I think about you and it helps me feel grounded.

I wrote to Janak: I'm getting catapulted through every aspect of self and delusions of self, and its coming to me, Im not going after "it."

I said to my wife: I don't know exactly what's happening with me, but I know I won't be the same when you come back from Japan next week.

This day and every moment in it is orchestrated. It is an intimate symphony needing nothing from me except total and unconditional acceptance. I'm gifted by it, grateful, and with no idea of what will happen next. Whatever happens is meant to happen. It will come to me, with no effort on my part because I will not get in the way.