Heart opening with Dorothy

The deepening experience of being with a realized one, and an hour of exploring the vast presence of infinity.

Getting the transmission behind the words: "awakeness awakens itself in a mind-body in its own experience of being." A rest from my glaring attention to the details of finding the present moment. I didn't know that I wasn't open to the Great Heart of the present moment until after our meeting, when it came to me why I was feeling that mysterious lightness, as if a metaphysical weight had been removed from my body. It was my heart opening. Janak just said, a few days ago, to find the teacher who would take my heart. I found her, yet in reality she came to me. Thank you, Adonai, in the love and light.

Addendum 4-2-12:
Moon MountainSangha Newsletter
Volume 53, April2012
Dear Joel,
Have you ever picked through a bag of driedlegumes—beans, split peas, lentils—to find tiny pebbles?  Those pieces of grit are no less anexpression of reality than the legumes, but they can make our experience andthose of our dinner guests less satisfying, or even at times pose the danger ofchipping a tooth.   When washed andcooked, the legumes become soft, digestible and are nutritious.  But if we bite a rock, we feel a jolt.
 What about those conditioned places in our self thatseem hardened and indigestible?  One ofthe most common experiences we have after we have had some degree of awakeningto the truth of our Being is the experience of “knowing” that some of ourbeliefs, feelings, actions or reactions are not in accord with what we haverealized, but here they are anyway, giving us (and perhaps those around us) ajolt.
 First of all, we must understand that our hardened,dense, frozen, conditioned beliefs, feelings and reactions are no less anexpression of the single Reality than our sweet, loving, open ones.   Shards of ice that may feel stuckmetaphorically in the heart are still made of water, but they will begin tomelt and flow again when the warmth of the sun touches them—the sun of our ownAwareness.  We do not need to judge thehard spots as being an indication that there is something wrong with the “me”(who does not truly exist separate from the Mystery’s expression as life itself.)   But eventually we may be moved toinvestigate the sticky places, not because we “should,” not because we have aseparate “self” to improve, but because we want the truth.
 What is this energy of fear, anger, sadness--evenjoy--made of?  What beliefs does ituphold? This is a very different motivator than trying to get rid of somethingor trying to hold onto something.  Suchan inquiry is not an intellectual analysis. What happens when we just allow our own simple awareness to move rightinside the energetic expression of the feeling or the belief—no longer viewingthe experience from outside, but being totally intimate, totally at one withit? Not denying, not repressing, not expressing, not indulging—but being the moment.
 Eventually, our own Awareness will begin a sortingprocess as awakening unfolds. The difference between our conditioned mindlooking at these things and Awareness being intimate and at-one with our ownhardened, divided or deluded places is that Awareness does not judge.  When we are open to Seeing, not because we “should,”but because we truly want truth, our own awakeness begins to unwind itsconfusion through the medium of direct seeing and experiencing, clarity,openness and loving compassion. 
 We must discover for ourselves who/what we trulyare, and what is the truth behind our own expressions of aversion, attachmentand delusion.  We have been conditionedfrom beginningless time to meet the world and ourselves in certain ways.  Are we open to meeting life as it is from adifferent dimension?  We may have spentlifetimes trying to perfect our dreamed “self.” But right now, can we allow the perfectly whole vastness of our truenature to meet itself in the vulnerable places where it seems to hide in ourvery ordinary, and seemingly imperfect, human experience? It is not enough toknow life is “all one.”  The all “one”wants to express itself more and more compassionately and clearly in our human lives.