Do you know where you are?

Sometime before the dawn of this morning, in that place between dreaming and awakening, I had clarity. I created some questions and the answers came immediately.
It seemed like I knew the answer but wasn't aware that I knew, so I had to find the question. Maybe that's what satsang does. It brings up answers to questions we didn't even know we had. I was having satsang with a higher mind while horizontal in bed. So, where am I?
I've seen through my final desire to do something in the illusion. That was the desire to be part of the solution to the health care crisis, a crisis with causes and solutions that became apparent as soon as I focused attention on them last year. Thank God that's over. The suffering that brought, thinking that the decline of the health of America, now equivalent to that of some third world countries, would begin to turn around, was a painful fantasy with no good outcome. Even getting Americans to learn ways to take better care of their health won't happen in this generation. Who wants to bother when Dr. Oz is teaching people to do cardio aerobics, just like Jack LaLanne did in the '50s, and Richard Simmons did in the '70s? People are less healthy now than they were then. Richard even became morbidly obese, for a while.
The completely futile desire to help people is now seen through, and vanished. I wanted the human race to become happier and healthier, but I could not have any measurable impact trying to ease the suffering of people I see as separate selves. In 1997 I saw the vanity of trying to ease my own suffering and in 2000 I was free of it, for a while. Two months ago I saw the futility of trying to help others, and will soon be free forever, because I will take it even deeper.

We feel when the brain is getting rewired, and the mind is reorganizing, and that's what's happening to me these mornings. But, we forget it, and distract ourselves away from it, keeping it covered over because we fear it or we need to fit into the world around us. Who can be honest about this, and see through the illusion? Contemplation is remembering it, and meditation is turning away from distraction, Who can turn their attention to it fully, and do the work? The desire for the desirelessness is a common denominator to shifting awareness of a self to the pure awareness of the present moment of infinite potential. Who knows how to bring on this desire, and allow it when it happens?
That desire will consume me, burning off attachment, fear, karma, and all lesser desire. That's the method for freedom. Anything else is just technique.
I know where I am. I'm remembering, meditating, turning away from distraction, and preparing for the final desire. My location in time and space is a fantasy, and no longer relevant. I know exactly where I am.